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Did he put you up to this?

[ Implying there's a reason someone would ask (someone like) Ahiru to check up on her and make sure she's okay, implying there's a reason someone specific would think that a necessary course of action. Implying there's more going on here.

Way to play it cool, Ruka. ]

[quackery]

who would put me up to this

anyways even if someone did i wouldn't do it

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Nevermind. It's not very important, anyway.

[ Totally nailed it. ]

I'm sorry if I seem cruel, but I'm not accustomed to this sort of thing.

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oh no you don't seem cruel at all please don't worry! i'm just a little lost

you're certain you're alright?

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Yeah. I'll be okay. I always am.

[quackery]

even people who are always okay need someone to talk to at times

so if you ever do and you'd like me to listen please let me know :)

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(´ー^♡) I appreciate the offer, but please don't be disappointed that I can't accept it.

[quackery]

okay! it's fine if you don't want to

but keep in mind there's a difference between won't and can't

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Yes.

I understand it very well.

[quackery]

so why is it can't instead of won't

haha sorry i'm asking for a lot of explanations!

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That one, I won't explain.

[quackery]

oooooh how mysterious

do you have some deep dark secret

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Don't you?

[quackery]

[welp]

well that came out of nowhere haha i was kidding! not really though :) i'm not that interesting

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You don't have to pretend. There's some piece of your heart you keep in shadow, because you don't want anyone to see it. You wouldn't even like to look at it, yourself.

If the same existed in someone else, you might even forgive it, but it's different because it's your heart.

[quackery]

that's not true

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You wouldn't forgive it?

[quackery]

no i meant

what you said before that, that isn't true

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Who are you trying to convince?

Me, or you?

[quackery]

i was just trying to see how you're doing

[Unsaid: why are you doing this?]

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[ because she's a jerk who understands people and uses her understanding of people to be a jerk ]

What do you see now?

[quackery]

um

snow out the window and the walls of my bedroom

[heartsink]

Ha ha.

Enjoy the snow, Ahiru.

[quackery]

[A pause that's long enough it may seem like she won't respond at all, but—]

sorry

see as in what

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"i was just trying to see how you're doing"

But it didn't go the way you hoped it would at all. You wouldn't say something like that, if it did.

So my question is, what do you see now?