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Yes.

I understand it very well.

[quackery]

so why is it can't instead of won't

haha sorry i'm asking for a lot of explanations!

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That one, I won't explain.

[quackery]

oooooh how mysterious

do you have some deep dark secret

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Don't you?

[quackery]

[welp]

well that came out of nowhere haha i was kidding! not really though :) i'm not that interesting

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You don't have to pretend. There's some piece of your heart you keep in shadow, because you don't want anyone to see it. You wouldn't even like to look at it, yourself.

If the same existed in someone else, you might even forgive it, but it's different because it's your heart.

[quackery]

that's not true

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You wouldn't forgive it?

[quackery]

no i meant

what you said before that, that isn't true

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Who are you trying to convince?

Me, or you?

[quackery]

i was just trying to see how you're doing

[Unsaid: why are you doing this?]

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[ because she's a jerk who understands people and uses her understanding of people to be a jerk ]

What do you see now?

[quackery]

um

snow out the window and the walls of my bedroom

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Ha ha.

Enjoy the snow, Ahiru.

[quackery]

[A pause that's long enough it may seem like she won't respond at all, but—]

sorry

see as in what

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"i was just trying to see how you're doing"

But it didn't go the way you hoped it would at all. You wouldn't say something like that, if it did.

So my question is, what do you see now?

[quackery]

[Another pause.]

you're a good person

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What gave you that conclusion?

[quackery]

well!

not thinking about things that can be painful can be bad if you hide them far enough down inside your heart. so, trying to help people think about stuff like that is good of you :) even if there's nothing like that for me

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You've gotten my motives all wrong, but I suppose it doesn't matter.

[quackery]

[She suspected as much, really, but it feels better to move the focus from herself.]

can i hear the real motives or is that another deep dark secret

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You're certain to react with transparent denials, if I do.

[ shots fired ]

[quackery]

is that a no

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Why are you so hurt by the thought a stranger thinks you have a dark secret?