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Who are you trying to convince?

Me, or you?

[quackery]

i was just trying to see how you're doing

[Unsaid: why are you doing this?]

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[ because she's a jerk who understands people and uses her understanding of people to be a jerk ]

What do you see now?

[quackery]

um

snow out the window and the walls of my bedroom

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Ha ha.

Enjoy the snow, Ahiru.

[quackery]

[A pause that's long enough it may seem like she won't respond at all, but—]

sorry

see as in what

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"i was just trying to see how you're doing"

But it didn't go the way you hoped it would at all. You wouldn't say something like that, if it did.

So my question is, what do you see now?

[quackery]

[Another pause.]

you're a good person

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What gave you that conclusion?

[quackery]

well!

not thinking about things that can be painful can be bad if you hide them far enough down inside your heart. so, trying to help people think about stuff like that is good of you :) even if there's nothing like that for me

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You've gotten my motives all wrong, but I suppose it doesn't matter.

[quackery]

[She suspected as much, really, but it feels better to move the focus from herself.]

can i hear the real motives or is that another deep dark secret

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You're certain to react with transparent denials, if I do.

[ shots fired ]

[quackery]

is that a no

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Why are you so hurt by the thought a stranger thinks you have a dark secret?

[quackery]

why are you assuming i'm hurt

i just don't want you to get the wrong idea

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You have the reaction of a wounded animal. Like pressure on a bruise under a sleeve.

I don't care what your secrets are. But don't expect others to let you go through the dark places of their hearts, when you pretend not to have one yourself.

[quackery]

you can tell exactly what my reaction was from a few texts?

anyways whatever this isn't about me. you didn't say how you're doing

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Text doesn't hide as much as you think it does.

[quackery]

there's nothing to hide

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There always is.

[quackery]

why do you think that

if you want to say

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Isn't it obvious?

[quackery]

obviously not if i just asked

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Excluding yourself, name the people you know who are exactly as they appear on the surface. No secrets, no hidden qualities. No embarrassing anecdotes. No feelings of grief. No unrequited romances.