That Is What I Thought The Second Thing At Least Most Guides To Interactions In Your Society Have An Emphasis On Making Friends So You Can See Why They Dont Apply And I Give Up Before Opening Them
Im A Little Concerned About His Apparent Hysterical Outbreak Because I Thought He Was Adjusting Okay Other Than His Bizarre Conviction A Week Is A Reasonable Time Within Which To Be Dismissed Maybe You Had The Misfortune To Be Around When It Finally Sank In
I Was Just So Worried When I Thought You Might Be In Harms Way From One Of My Own Former Friends But If You Werent Then Ok Im Sorry For Meddling I Should Have Had More Trust In You
Thats Already Understood But You Cant Possibly Think In The Worst Case Scenario Im Going To Gladly Leave You At The Mercy Of The Aristeas System Not That Karkat Necessarily Poses That Level Of Threat Still You Know How Things Are So Please Dont Accuse Me Of Trying To Babysit You
I Worry About It Anyway You Care About Or At Least Validate My Feelings Its The Least I Can Do In Return I Do Not Want That To Happen To You Even If Tactically There Is No Difference Its Not The Same To You Is It A Point You Took Great Pains To Convey
He Wouldnt Let Me I Tried But He Shied Away So I Receded A Lot After That
That Is Not What You Meant Is It Im Not Sure What Exactly The Exercise Was Supposed To Demonstrate Because If It Was That
He Did Die Even In The Modified Timeline The Milder Infection Was Still Too Much For Him Which Wasnt Fair But Then Again The Epidemiological Equivalent Of A Feather Probably Could Have Knocked Him Over So Blaming His Death On The United Earth Is Merely Politically Convenient Sometimes Innocent People Just Unfairly Expire
And I Guess What I Have Failed To Understand Is That Your Exercise Seems Intended To Evoke In A Concrete Manner The Abstract Truth That Anti-Death Systems Are Isolated To Selected Groups Like Our Own And Not A Luxury Available To The Population At Large
When We Were Arguing In The First Place Because You Have Deeply Internalized This Aspect Of Reality And Taken It To The Logical Conclusion That Long-Term Interpersonal Connection Is Impossible Which Is A Viewpoint Largely Absent From Other Humans To Enter Our Ranks Who May Not Necessarily Be Representative Of The General Population But Do Express The Obligatory Surprise And Skepticism That Such An Effective Machine Exists Implying It Is Absent In Their Own Worlds And Some Of Them Have Even Experienced The Death Of Their Own Parents Or Peers Nonetheless Not A Single Person I Have Ever Met Is Anywhere Near As Surly And Paranoid And Painfully Correct About The Inevitability Of Loss As You
That Is As Far As I Got Before I Gave Up Because The Truth Visible Outside Of However Much Of It You Do Or Do Not Entrust To Me Is That I Cant Understand What Has Made You That Way I Dont Know How Many People Have To Die Or Disappear Or Turn On You Or Inflict Trauma Until Your Heart Irrevocably Turns Into A Piece Of Onyx Other Than That It Is Probably A Lot More Than I Can Even Infer At This Point
And In Your Eye Why Open The Door To That Closet Not Only Is It Clear Such A Terrible Place Should Be Shut Off For The Safety Of The Outside World If You Let Me In How Do You Know I Wont Turn Into One Of The Graves Or Ghosts Or Monsters
You Dont I Know You Dont Know That Because I Dont Know That Either Ive Written This Embarrassingly Long Text Knowing There Is A Narrow But Not Entirely Neglible Chance You Will Never Receive It I Know That My Own Doors Swing Open Whenever I Catch Sight Of You But Knocking On Your Door Cant Make You Unlock It
So If I Fail To Grasp Your Lesson Then I Shouldnt Come Crying To You About It It Isnt Your Fault As A Teacher Even If I Were A Student Worthy Of Special Attention You Dont Work For Charity And I Couldnt Pay You Enough Your Heart Cant Be Bought
Well No You Couldnt Write "Twenty-Seven" And Be Done With It Doesnt The Sense Of Inescapability Elude Verbal Expression Explaining The Resort To The Experiment Which Had Suboptimal Results
Edited (this might not be the last edit I maaaaaaaaaaaake more fall out boy plays) 2013-12-11 01:18 (UTC)
You misunderstand. I mean, it's not about the number, because it's not the number that matters. None of it matters. You say it like I'm afraid of bonds, but it's nothing so sad as that.
I don't want them. That's all. My heart can't be bought, or stolen, or won over, because I left it at home.
[You told me you couldn't make bonds, especially not like this; you know "up here" what nobody else does; you you you you you disliked your situation before; she could bat around semantics all day but she doesn't want to, she wants to listen, she wants... more than to help. The want is too much, and if she lets it pour into her entire thinkpan the thirst is stronger than for blood.]
I Dont Think Youre Afraid Of Anything As Much As Appropriately Wary Theres Never Been Much Doubt That Like Most Valuables Its Been Left Under Lock And Key On The Top Floor My Confusion Is Only As To Why You Secured Such Secure Insurance Long Before You Actually Had To Leave Because Taking That Sense Is As Sensible As It Is Rare Im Not Your Accountant Though Any More Than Your Babysitter Or Bodyguard
If Everything Is Ok For Now Then Should I Not Drag Out Another Unproductive Argument Or Do You Maybe Want Help Packing In The Unlikely Scenario That You Have Both A Significant Collection Of Possessions And The Desire To Uproot Yourself Yet Again
[There go all those hopes and dreams of livestreaming movies with minimal personally oriented commentary
Back to the drawing board
Interacting with humans is hard enough without them explicitly ruling out friendship as a possible outcome!! The difference between this and being hated is hard to find...]
Well I Do Actually Have Packing To Do Talk To You Later Haruka
[She wants quite a bit to clarify that it's a greeting, not a guarantee or threat, but ultimately decides Haruka would react too appropriately to the trouble that tone over the Internet has almost gotten her in with the police.
At least she's not dragging this interaction out until Haruka finally loses her patience again! Progress? Who is Kanaya kidding--not herself, she knows she's not winning Haruka's heart (what a turn of phrase there) more than anyone else's. This doesn't mean anything, all she can do is continue pretending it does.]
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Though, no, it's not. At least, I don't like it at all.
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The Second Thing At Least
Most Guides To Interactions In Your Society Have An Emphasis On Making Friends So You Can See Why They Dont Apply And I Give Up Before Opening Them
Im A Little Concerned About His Apparent Hysterical Outbreak Because I Thought He Was Adjusting Okay Other Than His Bizarre Conviction A Week Is A Reasonable Time Within Which To Be Dismissed
Maybe You Had The Misfortune To Be Around When It Finally Sank In
I Was Just So Worried When I Thought You Might Be In Harms Way From One Of My Own Former Friends
But If You Werent
Then
Ok
Im Sorry For Meddling
I Should Have Had More Trust In You
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[ but you didn't have tO CUUUUUT ME OFFFFFF ]
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But You Cant Possibly Think In The Worst Case Scenario Im Going To Gladly Leave You At The Mercy Of The Aristeas System
Not That Karkat Necessarily Poses That Level Of Threat
Still
You Know How Things Are So Please Dont Accuse Me Of Trying To Babysit You
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You Care About Or At Least Validate My Feelings Its The Least I Can Do In Return
I Do Not Want That
To Happen To You
Even If Tactically There Is No Difference
Its Not The Same To You Is It
A Point You Took Great Pains To Convey
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I Tried But He Shied Away So I Receded A Lot After That
That Is Not What You Meant Is It
Im Not Sure What Exactly The Exercise Was Supposed To Demonstrate Because If It Was That
He Did Die
Even In The Modified Timeline The Milder Infection Was Still Too Much For Him
Which Wasnt Fair But Then Again The Epidemiological Equivalent Of A Feather Probably Could Have Knocked Him Over
So Blaming His Death On The United Earth Is Merely Politically Convenient
Sometimes Innocent People Just Unfairly Expire
And I Guess What I Have Failed To Understand Is That
Your Exercise Seems Intended To Evoke In A Concrete Manner The Abstract Truth That Anti-Death Systems Are Isolated To Selected Groups Like Our Own And Not A Luxury Available To The Population At Large
When We Were Arguing In The First Place Because
You Have Deeply Internalized This Aspect Of Reality And Taken It To The Logical Conclusion That Long-Term Interpersonal Connection Is Impossible
Which Is A Viewpoint Largely Absent From Other Humans To Enter Our Ranks
Who May Not Necessarily Be Representative Of The General Population But Do Express The Obligatory Surprise And Skepticism That Such An Effective Machine Exists Implying It Is Absent In Their Own Worlds
And Some Of Them Have Even Experienced The Death Of Their Own Parents Or Peers
Nonetheless
Not A Single Person I Have Ever Met Is Anywhere Near As Surly And Paranoid And Painfully Correct About The Inevitability Of Loss As You
That Is As Far As I Got Before
I Gave Up
Because The Truth Visible Outside Of However Much Of It You Do Or Do Not Entrust To Me Is That
I Cant Understand What Has Made You That Way
I Dont Know How Many People Have To Die Or Disappear Or Turn On You Or Inflict Trauma Until Your Heart Irrevocably Turns Into A Piece Of Onyx
Other Than That It Is Probably A Lot More Than I Can Even Infer At This Point
And In Your Eye
Why Open The Door To That Closet
Not Only Is It Clear Such A Terrible Place Should Be Shut Off For The Safety Of The Outside World
If You Let Me In How Do You Know I Wont Turn Into One Of The Graves Or Ghosts Or Monsters
You Dont
I Know You Dont Know That
Because I Dont Know That Either
Ive Written This Embarrassingly Long Text Knowing There Is A Narrow But Not Entirely Neglible Chance You Will Never Receive It
I Know That My Own Doors Swing Open Whenever I Catch Sight Of You But Knocking On Your Door Cant Make You Unlock It
So If I Fail To Grasp Your Lesson Then I Shouldnt Come Crying To You About It
It Isnt Your Fault As A Teacher
Even If I Were A Student Worthy Of Special Attention
You Dont Work For Charity
And I Couldnt Pay You Enough
Your Heart Cant Be Bought
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Doesnt The Sense Of Inescapability Elude Verbal Expression
Explaining The Resort To The Experiment Which Had Suboptimal Results
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I don't want them. That's all. My heart can't be bought, or stolen, or won over, because I left it at home.
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I Dont Think Youre Afraid Of Anything As Much As Appropriately Wary
Theres Never Been Much Doubt That Like Most Valuables Its Been Left Under Lock And Key On The Top Floor
My Confusion Is Only As To Why You Secured Such Secure Insurance Long Before You Actually Had To Leave Because Taking That Sense Is As Sensible As It Is Rare
Im Not Your Accountant Though Any More Than Your Babysitter Or Bodyguard
If Everything Is Ok For Now Then
Should I Not Drag Out Another Unproductive Argument
Or Do You Maybe Want Help Packing In The Unlikely Scenario That You Have Both A Significant Collection Of Possessions And The Desire To Uproot Yourself Yet Again
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1/2 (IC separate)
2/2
Do You Like Movies As Much As You Like Books
I Mean Are You Averse Or Ambivalent Or Affable Towards The Medium Of Film
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[ averse. ]
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Ok In That Case I Wont Inflict Upon You The Idea I Had Of Our Killing Time By Sifting Through The Motley Cinematic Record To Identify Works With Merit
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Appreciated.
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Back to the drawing board
Interacting with humans is hard enough without them explicitly ruling out friendship as a possible outcome!! The difference between this and being hated is hard to find...]
Well I Do Actually Have Packing To Do
Talk To You Later Haruka
[She wants quite a bit to clarify that it's a greeting, not a guarantee or threat, but ultimately decides Haruka would react too appropriately to the trouble that tone over the Internet has almost gotten her in with the police.
At least she's not dragging this interaction out until Haruka finally loses her patience again! Progress? Who is Kanaya kidding--not herself, she knows she's not winning Haruka's heart (what a turn of phrase there) more than anyone else's. This doesn't mean anything, all she can do is continue pretending it does.]