( it's because, in part, he realizes that speaking of friendship would put her off, and also because it's an easy way for him to see these things. it'd bothered chrono — my confidence isn't a bargaining chip — but simple transactions make much more sense than the messier business of feelings. and she's right, he thinks, about weight and shape; he'll likely never quite follow or experience to understand the things that scare her, and he can hope she'll never have uncertainties about her right to exist. )
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What I want?